Against my nature

I find that my nature is to let people into my innermost thoughts and feelings very quickly. I dislike "secrets" because I almost never keep any. If a person, almost any person, were to ask me any question I would answer truthfully. I used to lie a lot because I saw how well it worked for so many people around me, but I can't stand being that person. So that, my friends, is my nature(or at least part of it).

Being so open has it's benefits and it's terrible drawbacks. By nature people confide in people that confide in them. As you strip your "layers" or "walls" they feel more comfortable being who they really are around you and also let down their defenses. This is great for friendships and possibly relationships. I say possibly because I can not speak on that subject without a large asterisk next to anything I say. Anyway, the drawback to my nature is that it is absolutely horrible for attracting someone.

This is where my blog title comes in. I find myself increasingly going against (and often failing to go against) what I would feel comfortable doing in "the pursuit." It's frustrating, confusing, and stressful, but I have seen why it has to be done. Here is a tip of the hat to those like me, who must put on a mask so someday they can strip it away.